Dialysis
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The Empty Chair: A Liturgy of Absence.
Christy’s absence in the dialysis ward creates a profound sense of loss, highlighting the bond with caregivers and shared memories. Continue reading
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The hum of lines
I wrote a poem this week called The Hum of Lines. It is not a bright poem. It sits in the quiet room. It listens to the machine. It hears the slow, steady movement of blood through borrowed pathways. Dialysis has a soundscape. The hum of the pump. The soft alarms. The rhythm that is… Continue reading
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Stay with me in the waiting.
There are days when Jeremiah’s cry—“My anguish, my anguish!”—feels less like something from long ago and more like the body’s own truth. In the dialysis unit, with the soft beeping of the machines and the hush of people doing their best to get through another session, you can hear that same ache. Jeremiah speaks of… Continue reading
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Andrew, this is you.
Some love stories are written in grand gestures. Ours has been written in endurance. This Valentine’s Day, I honour fifteen years of partnership with Andrew—and ten years of civil marriage later this year—not because the dates fall now, but because love that has lived this much deserves to be named whenever the heart nudges. Our… Continue reading
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NeuroDivine Update
A quieter day from me. Dialysis was tougher than expected—my blood pressure dropped sharply, and we couldn’t remove as much fluid as planned. It looks like I’ve put on a bit of weight, which explains the hand and leg cramps even without reaching “dry weight”. So while we tried to regulate the BP, I was… Continue reading
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Nights. Washed. Empty.
Sleep has been hard to come by lately. With my kidneys no longer working and life shaped around thrice‑weekly dialysis, you’d imagine that the hours after treatment—when the blood is cleaned and the body should feel lighter—might bring some rest. But even then, sleep doesn’t come. It’s a strange kind of exhaustion: tired in every… Continue reading
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Machines. Mercy. Meaning.
In the long, measured hours of dialysis, I began to notice how healing is carried not only by machines and medicine, but by the people who sit beside us, the families who steady us, and the landscape we carry within. This hymn‑poem grew from that stillness—a way of naming the courage found in ordinary care,… Continue reading
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Chosen and Kept: The Sacred Liturgy of Presence and Care
In the quiet hum of the dialysis unit, where machines pulse with steady rhythms and time is measured in millilitres, Declan and Marcus find a sanctuary. Their story is not one of mere survival but of abiding joy, friendship, and the sacred dance of queer kinship amidst constraint. Dialysis life imposes limits—fluid restrictions, dietary rules,… Continue reading
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Shift. Grace. Arrival.
A quiet reflection for a day shifted out of rhythm—when plans move, the centre wavers, and yet presence meets you exactly where you are. In the midst of a rearranged moment, a promise settles close. Continue reading
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Trust. Table. Calm.
A hymn of fear met with trust, bread shared in fellowship, and storms stilled by Christ. Continue reading
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Ambulance. Care. Trust.
During dialysis this morning I experienced chest pain and difficulty breathing. I’ve been placed on oxygen and dialysis was stopped so I can be checked out. An ambulance has been called. I ask for your prayers and a little extra grace today. Continue reading
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Seeds. Scars. Solidarity.
In the grain of wheat, in the dialysis chair, in the scars of memory — prayer becomes fruit. Continue reading
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Known. Warned. Sent.
A Friday reflection where Psalm, Prophet, and Gospel weave together—reminding us we are searched, cautioned, and commissioned, even in the waiting chair. Continue reading
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Resilience. Ritual. Road.
The week ahead is not just endured but offered — a mosaic of care and quiet courage. Continue reading
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Silence. Trust. Rest.
After Compline, silence is not emptiness but communion—fertile ground where trust deepens and rest becomes prayer. On this Thursday of reprieve, I let quiet be my healing. Continue reading
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Measure. Mercy. Joy.
In the hum of the machine and the weight of bread, grace is found in sufficiency. Continue reading
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Dialysis, Decisions, and Sticky Blood: A Gentle Pause
When haemoglobin climbs too high, even helpful treatments like Aranesp need a rethink. In today’s post, I reflect on a quiet clinical decision to hold off the injection—and why listening to your body (and your nurse manager) matters. A small pause, a big partnership. Continue reading
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Reflection: The Sacred Cycle
This week begins again. Not with fireworks, but with quiet courage. Dialysis isn’t just a medical routine—it’s a sacred rhythm of survival. A new reflection on NeuroDivine explores the grace hidden in repetition, and the strength it takes to keep showing up. Continue reading
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Brightness. Silence. Cloak.
A quiet reflection for All Saints’ Day—where Wisdom walks with those who eat alone, where silence is not exile but grace, and where the cloak is never forgotten. Continue reading
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Bank Holiday Blues
When the timetable shifts, so does the soul. A reflection on dialysis, delays, and small mercies. Continue reading
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