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Holding Rhythm When Grace Feels Distant

Readings: Psalm 77 | 1 Maccabees 1:41–64 | Mark 14:26–42 | RB Chapter 12

Psalm 77 begins in the night. Not the gentle hush of Compline, but the aching kind—where memory stings and the psalmist’s voice cracks with longing. “Has God forgotten to be gracious?” The question isn’t rhetorical. It’s the kind asked by someone who knows grace intimately and feels its absence like a missing limb. And yet, the psalm turns. Not with resolution, but with remembrance. The waters saw you, O God. The deep trembled. Even when the path was through the sea and your footprints were unseen, you led your people like a shepherd.

That same ache echoes in 1 Maccabees. The desecration of the altar, the forced abandonment of tradition, the quiet horror of compromise. It’s not just about laws—it’s about rhythm, belonging, and the sacred texture of daily life. The faithful who resist do so not with grand speeches, but with fidelity. They die rather than eat what defiles. Their witness is not loud, but it is deeply musical—like a drone note beneath history, holding the line.

Then Mark 14. The hymn sung before the Mount of Olives. The faltering disciples. The cup that cannot pass. It’s a scene of layered grief: communal, personal, cosmic. And yet, even here, there is rhythm. “When they had sung a hymn…” That detail matters. Even in the shadow of betrayal, the song is sung. The liturgy holds.

Which brings us to the Rule’s instruction for Sunday morning. Psalm 66, recited straight through—no antiphon, no interruption. It’s a declaration: “Make a joyful noise,” even when joy feels distant. Then Psalm 50, with “Alleluia”—a word that defies despair. The sequence unfolds like a musical score: praise, blessing, apocalypse, hymn, canticle, litany. It’s not just a structure—it’s a choreography of hope. A way to move through grief without denying it. A way to remember that even when the path is through the sea, the rhythm remains.

For those who live by rhythm—who feel the world in patterns, in tone, in liturgical texture—this is not just comforting. It’s anchoring. The Rule doesn’t ask for perfection. It asks for presence. For showing up. For singing the hymn even when the cup cannot pass.

Today, the readings stitch together lament, resistance, and quiet fidelity. They remind us that grief is not a failure of faith. That memory can be painful and holy. That rhythm—whether in psalm or silence—is a form of prayer.

And that even when the footprints are unseen, we are still being led.